[He gives a soft bitter little laugh]

The first execution Father had me view with him, I burst into tears. I thought for sure he would be angry... But instead he ushered me under his cloak to hide.

[he smiles weakly, as if it was a fond memory along with an awful one.]

But after he said that... that a king has to be able to face death and feel nothing. That if he even flinched his people will question his judgement. That... He must feel not pain or pleasure in it. I...

I still can't do that even after six years.